I don't feel it's coincidental the changes I've been rapidly experiencing happened two weeks after removing a relationship from my life which had incredibly deep roots and was damaging, nor do I find it coincidental it happened two hours after having a man I care about very deeply request space between us. Changes happens in one of two directions, in my experience, either the catalyst is internal and flows to external, or it starts external and flows internal. Now, I'm not saying it only happens one way every time, because it doesn't. Change may start internal and flow external, then the external shifts and swing back to change the internal. In my case the internal was a direct manifestation of external relationship wounds which needed addressing.
For me, I'd been nursing a health issue all summer and believed I'd pulled it under control, only to find myself floored two hours later and on the phone calling for help. 24 hours later surgery removed a rather large and invasive cyst along with my right ovary. As a long time believer in energy/body connection, and how our experiences in life are reflected in our body and vice versa, I was not (in retrospect) surprised cutting out one painful and unresolved relationship--which was out of my hands to take care of--caused an internal shift in my body resulting in the removal of an unresolved health issue.
And at this point, in pulling up the roots of beliefs which no longer serve me and doing my best to balance internal space with the longing of the heart and the demands of the mind trying to push you into old patterns, I found inspiration from the network of beautiful souls around me. The words of wisdom handed to me to apply have been invaluable tools, and I hope to share them with you.
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"Ask for Support. Surrender. Get Curious." -- LaShaun Dale
I Need a Miracle -- Third Day
Applied with work from Byron Katie's The Work and Rod Stryker's The Four Desires I truly feel like I've been given some strong tools to refocus the mind and allow the tangled web we so often create internally to untangle it's self. Change doesn't necessarily mean rushing headlong away from whatever has you uncomfortable and into something new and unknown, for that creates it's own set of issues. But, often it's just a deeper breath, a moment to sit and wait, to just wonder..."How can this be different? What is life going to show me now?" Then taking the new colors on your palate and painting an entirely different out look.
With the opening of my body and being put into a situation requiring me to directly deal with the pattern repeating itself in my life I feel like I've had the opportunity to come back to myself and heal stronger than ever, as opposed to declaring myself strong enough to move through anything thrown my way and simply training harder.